Hello EVERYONE & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! I’M BACK!!!! Long time no see,
literally. BUT I’m back and if you have read the title (which you probably have
because I’m pretty sure that’s the reason you clicked on this post right like…duh
lol) But let me explain, confirm and inform y’all on this title.
So I recently graduated from the University of South
Carolina with my bachelors in Theater YAS!
And I have been thinking about my future and really
trying to figure out what I really want to do. I thought about this a lot in
college and I went through a lot of stress, which lead to self – doubt and
depression and the reason why is because on one hand I wanted to REALLY pursue my dreams
and stand in my truth but on the other hand I was scared to be judged negatively
by the people I grew up with and being looked at as the “weird one”.
A lot of people always thought I would do great things and I didn’t want to let
them down. Plus the lifestyle I want to lead doesn’t guarantee success, fame,
or financial stability. I didn’t want to be a disappointment in their eyes. I
also didn’t want to dishonor my family name. I was so confused and felt trapped
in my own confusion and frustration. I
prayed a lot during this time and talked to God asking him what I should do and
what is the right path for me and if K-pop wasn’t a part of that path I asked Him
to remove it from my life completely but if it was let the love for it [K-pop]
grow stronger. I thought I was going to have to let K-pop go but my love for it
just keep getting stronger and stronger and it wasn’t until after I graduated
and came back home I realized what I have to do; that this was my calling!
It was that time I realized I have to become a K-pop
idol/artist. I don’t just want to do it I HAVE TO DO IT! And when I realized it
all of my thoughts became clear and I understood my purpose and the reason why
I was born. I know this all sounds a little ridiculous right now but these are
my honest feelings. I have ALWAYS wanted to be a popstar like Beyoncé, Rihanna,
Janet Jackson, Britney Spears, etc… but never thought about becoming one until I got into K-pop. I can go into the reasons WHY I want to be a K-pop idol on another post because I have soooooooo many lol! ^_^
So after reading ALL of this, you are probably wondering well what’s going to happen to the blog well…NOTHING! The blog will still be here but the content on it will be a little different.
The next chapter of my life will be a whole journey
and I want to take y’all on this journey with me and that’s where this blog
comes in. I will be using this blog to show y’all my journey to becoming a
K-pop idol/artist. This blog will go through some rebranding but the concept
and idea of it will still be the same. I still want this blog to inspire y’all to not be scared to follow your dreams and that you can do anything you
set your mind to. Y’all have no idea how many comments I get on a daily from
Black, White and Hispanic people; and even Southeast Asians from India, the Phillipines, Singapore, etc… asking if
they could be K-pop idols/artists even if they’re not East Asian. And I gave
the best advice telling them they could but I couldn’t go any farther than that
because I am not a K-pop idol and I don’t know any K-pop idols. I felt sad that
I couldn’t really give them better advice. So that’s why I will be using this
blog and documenting my entire experience because I don’t want you to give up
on your dreams and, if I can, help guide and lead you through the right paths.
I want to help create a path for ALL NON EAST ASIANS to become K-pop idols
because honestly that’s the future of, not only K-pop, but the whole world; the
inclusion, representation and acceptance of different races and different
cultures.
ALSO I will not only have this blog but I will also
have a YouTube channel dedicated to this journey as well. My channel is
ThisIsCharlese.
NOW! I do have short-term goals that I have set for
this year in order to reach my overall long-term goal, which is to become a
K-pop idol. So…here are a list of my goals.
1.
- MOVE TO SOUTH KOREA! – Out of all of the I have this is the most important one! If I’m going to be a K-pop idol that is the place I will wind up eventually and that is the place that will provide more opportunities. Plus it’s Korean Pop so that would require me to be in Korea.
- GLOW UP! – I REALLY need to lose weight, it’s ridiculous how fat I am TT^TT and I also went natural last year so I am growing out my hair. I also need to learn how to do my makeup. I have watched YouTube videos here and there and I really want to learn but makeup is SOOOO EXPENSIVE!!! TT^TT I also want to improve my fashion so yall might see some stuff about fashion on this blog.
- SAVE MONEY – So in order to get to Korea I am going to have to say money to pay for my flight and living and to just plain SURVIVE! So yeah…need money!
- LEARN KOREAN & CULTURE – I have been learning Korean on and off since 2012 lol xD If I would have stuck with it I would probably be fluent right now and have one less thing to worry about but meh -.- I also have learned a lot about Korean culture because I am friends with Koreans from Korea and they have taught me a lot about their culture and were happy to share it and teach me about it.
- STAY CONSTANT! – When I mean “stay constant” I mean to stick to what I’m doing and to not give up and to stay focused on my goals. I have problems with inconstancy in my life but if I can just be constant and focused I know that I can accomplish ANYTHING!
Overall, these are my main goals for 2018! It’s a
new year it’s a new chapter! I can’t lie to yall…I’m nervous and really scared.
I’m jumping into unknown territory. I have never done ANYTHING like this before
plus I’m doing it all by myself and I don’t even know it I will be successful
but I’ll never know it I don’t try so…wish me luck on this crazy adventure of
ours and I’ll see you in my next post. BYEZ!!!!
