LET'S GET STARTED!!!
So I just wanted to talk about how I've been feeling lately. I am getting old lol well....at least too old to become a K-pop idol/star. I am looking at the new groups that keep popping up and all of them are younger than me! I just get SSSSOOOOOOOOO frustrated because in the back of my mind I am thinking, "that should be me". You know?!?! and they keep getting younger and it's like WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE!!! I always compare myself to them (even though I know I shouldn't compare myself to others) I always DO! How can you not?!?! I am not hating I am just a little jealous because they started when they were soooo young and look how far they have come compared to me...I am no where closer to my dream than last year. I am still NOT a trainee so definitely not close to even being considered an idol! I've been at this since 2012 and I have gotten NOWHERE! A part of me just wants to give up and call it quits.....go find a regular job and live a regular life...get married and that's it. I always think about what I am going to do if I don't make it. What will I do? There is nothing that I REALLY want to do besides this...
I think like this ALL the time and it is hard. Wanting something to happen and working towards it and getting nowhere. It's okay to think like sometimes everyone does but we shouldn't think like that ALL the time. If think is our out look of life than nothing will happen, if we continue think negatively than that's all that we're going to produce BUT if we think positively than we will produce positive things. There are going to be 2 auditions coming up, one for JYP and the for FNC and I won't able to go to any of them...I was kinda bet down about it but it's okay! Next year I will definitely attend more! This gives more time to work on my auditions so that next year I can blow the judges away! and I even am starting a video so I can get my name out there. I also will loss weight so that I can show the judges a new me!
I think this is a good message to always look forward and stay positive! I know there are those times when you want to give up and you want to quit but always remember to look on the brighter side of things and stay positive! Positive energy ONLY produces MORE positive energy!
ALSO REMEMBER....TO NEVER GIVE UP!!!
There countless numbers of K-pop idols that have also had these thoughts but NEVER gave up!
Choa of AOA failed 15 SM auditions and some JYP auditions too before she got into FNC
HyunA of 4minute failed 50 acting audition before she was signed to JYP and placed in the Wondergirls and then because of health reasons she had to leave
Wondergirls and for 2 years was in a deep depression until she audition for Cube and got accept as a member of 4minute. She is also my UB in K-pop ^_^!!!
Sehun of EXO was casted on the street by an SM staff but still went through 4 auditions in the time frame of 2 years before he got into SM.
Rain(λΉ„) auditioned 18 times for JYP entertainment before he was accepted. He is the reason why I got into K-pop in the first place.
and there are much more than this!
They didn't give up so why we? Keep chasing after your dreams! and NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Thank you for your time...seeya! byez ^_~
