I'M A BLACK GIRL AND I'M GOING TO BECOME A K-POP IDOL - Follow Me on My Journey ~

Hello EVERYONE & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!  I’M BACK!!!! Long time no see, literally. BUT I’m back and if you have read the title (which you probably have because I’m pretty sure that’s the reason you clicked on this post right like…duh lol) But let me explain, confirm and inform y’all on this title.

So I recently graduated from the University of South Carolina with my bachelors in Theater YAS!

And I have been thinking about my future and really trying to figure out what I really want to do. I thought about this a lot in college and I went through a lot of stress, which lead to self – doubt and depression and the reason why is because on one hand I wanted to REALLY pursue my dreams and stand in my truth but on the other hand I was scared to be judged negatively by the people I grew up with and being looked at as the “weird one”. A lot of people always thought I would do great things and I didn’t want to let them down. Plus the lifestyle I want to lead doesn’t guarantee success, fame, or financial stability. I didn’t want to be a disappointment in their eyes. I also didn’t want to dishonor my family name. I was so confused and felt trapped in my own confusion and frustration.  I prayed a lot during this time and talked to God asking him what I should do and what is the right path for me and if K-pop wasn’t a part of that path I asked Him to remove it from my life completely but if it was let the love for it [K-pop] grow stronger. I thought I was going to have to let K-pop go but my love for it just keep getting stronger and stronger and it wasn’t until after I graduated and came back home I realized what I have to do; that this was my calling!

It was that time I realized I have to become a K-pop idol/artist. I don’t just want to do it I HAVE TO DO IT! And when I realized it all of my thoughts became clear and I understood my purpose and the reason why I was born. I know this all sounds a little ridiculous right now but these are my honest feelings. I have ALWAYS wanted to be a popstar like Beyoncé, Rihanna, Janet Jackson, Britney Spears, etc… but never thought about becoming one until I got into K-pop. I can go into the reasons WHY I want to be a K-pop idol on another post because I have soooooooo many lol! ^_^ 

So after reading ALL of this, you are probably wondering well what’s going to happen to the blog well…NOTHING! The blog will still be here but the content on it will be a little different.

The next chapter of my life will be a whole journey and I want to take y’all on this journey with me and that’s where this blog comes in. I will be using this blog to show y’all my journey to becoming a K-pop idol/artist. This blog will go through some rebranding but the concept and idea of it will still be the same. I still want this blog to inspire y’all to not be scared to follow your dreams and that you can do anything you set your mind to. Y’all have no idea how many comments I get on a daily from Black, White and Hispanic people; and even Southeast Asians from India,  the Phillipines, Singapore, etc… asking if they could be K-pop idols/artists even if they’re not East Asian. And I gave the best advice telling them they could but I couldn’t go any farther than that because I am not a K-pop idol and I don’t know any K-pop idols. I felt sad that I couldn’t really give them better advice. So that’s why I will be using this blog and documenting my entire experience because I don’t want you to give up on your dreams and, if I can, help guide and lead you through the right paths. I want to help create a path for ALL NON EAST ASIANS to become K-pop idols because honestly that’s the future of, not only K-pop, but the whole world; the inclusion, representation and acceptance of different races and different cultures.

ALSO I will not only have this blog but I will also have a YouTube channel dedicated to this journey as well. My channel is ThisIsCharlese.  

NOW! I do have short-term goals that I have set for this year in order to reach my overall long-term goal, which is to become a K-pop idol. So…here are a list of my goals.

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1.       MOVE TO SOUTH KOREA! – Out of all of the I have this is the most important one! If I’m going to be a K-pop idol that is the place I will wind up eventually and that is the place that will provide more opportunities. Plus it’s Korean Pop so that would require me to be in Korea.
2.       GLOW UP! – I REALLY need to lose weight, it’s ridiculous how fat I am TT^TT and I also went natural last year so I am growing out my hair. I also need to learn how to do my makeup. I have watched YouTube videos here and there and I really want to learn but makeup is SOOOO EXPENSIVE!!! TT^TT I also want to improve  my fashion so yall might see some stuff about fashion on this blog.
3.            SAVE MONEY – So in order to get to Korea I am going to have to say money to pay for my flight and living and to just plain SURVIVE! So yeah…need money!
4.           LEARN KOREAN & CULTURE – I have been learning Korean on and off since 2012 lol xD If I would have stuck with it I would probably be fluent right now and have one less thing to worry about but meh -.- I also have learned a lot about Korean culture because I am friends with Koreans from Korea and they have taught me a lot about their culture and were happy to share it and teach me about it.
5.       STAY CONSTANT! – When I mean “stay constant” I mean to stick to what I’m doing and to not give up and to stay focused on my goals. I have problems with inconstancy in my life but if I can just be constant and focused I know that I can accomplish ANYTHING!

Overall, these are my main goals for 2018! It’s a new year it’s a new chapter! I can’t lie to yall…I’m nervous and really scared. I’m jumping into unknown territory. I have never done ANYTHING like this before plus I’m doing it all by myself and I don’t even know it I will be successful but I’ll never know it I don’t try so…wish me luck on this crazy adventure of ours and I’ll see you in my next post. BYEZ!!!!  

Inspiration Sunday's : WRITE YOUR BEST STORIES!!!

Hii Guys!! how's it going? Well lately I have been feeling  a little down like, I am in this state a mini depression and I don't know what to do. This is going to be really hard for to me to explain but bear with me. (Also I know it's not Sunday but this couldn't wait)

Honestly, I have recently started to think about giving up on my dreams and just life in general.... that's why I haven't been on my blog in a while. I haven't felt the need to continue because...well....of a lot things. I have just been feeling really lost and I don't know what to do. I am in college right now and this is my last year and I have really big decisions to make. I will have to move out of my mom's house and live on my own and pay bills and ALL that fun stuff but....that is not really what I am scared of I guess it more of will I be able to achieve my dreams after college. You all know that I want to be a K-pop idol but that dream is coming up short now because I am 22 years old and we all know that.....okay the younger the better chances you have of becoming a K-pop idol and I feel like year by year me becoming a K-pop idol is becoming a hopeless dream now and if I am not able to become k-pop idol than....WHAT WILL I DO! I have plans of things I could do. I don't always have to go the "standard" way of becoming a K-pop idol I can do my way and still succeed BUT I don't know where to start and I don't want to make the wrong decisions....basically what I saying is I DON'T WANT TO FAIL! I don't want to feel like I wasted 22 years of my life for NOTHING! I just can't help but feel like I shouldn't have come to college I should have been more serious about my future. When I was younger I was care-free and I thought that I will never get old...but now that I am getting older I can see that I will not live forever and if I just waste my life away it would make me feel like my life was meaningless. I honestly don't know what the point was of me even coming to college! I feel like such a failure and I have had SO MANY setbacks! I just wish I knew what God's plan for me was so I can just focus on that. Sometimes I wish that I didn't have the dream that I do. Why couldn't I have wanted to be a doctor? or a lawyer? just something that's "normal" than I wouldn't be going through all this! I feel so lost at times and depressed because I don't know whats next for me, I don't know if becoming a K-pop idol is my TRUE calling or just a distraction. The next day is not guarantee you know...I just want to know what's my mission, my purpose and I feel like if I haven't figured it out by now....what's the point....I never will.

BUT I think that IS the point! Life isn't meant to be a planned thing, because let's be honest things don't always go the way you planned B) I think life is meant to be adventurous, outrageous, random, bold, and breathtaking. And I am ONLY 22 years old! if God willing I have a WHOLE life ahead of me! this isn't the end of a chapter its just the beginning! Honestly I don't know what K-pop companies are looking for. One day the could want someone that's 14 and the next day want someone that 26 WHO KNOWS?!?! it really is ALL about what they want to do for their next project so I am not going let my "age" stop me! AND even if I don't make it into a K-pop company I can say I tried and have NO REGRET! PLUS Korea isn't the only place I can become an idol! I can be a J-pop idol, a C-pop idol, and USA idol, etc... so no need to worry! B) PLUS finding "my purpose" will be a fun and adventurous journey because IT'S NOT ABOUT FINDING WHO YOU ARE, IT'S ABOUT DISCOVERING WHO YOU ARE!!!   really....who says I have to have all the answers to the questions of life right now! I don't have to rush and I can go at my own pace! I am NOT wasting my life away I am just finishing a chapter and starting a new one! I am happy that I don't have "normal" dreams it shows that I am creative, I'm free-spirited and let's be honest....the dreams won't be there if they weren't meant for me.

Alright guys, I hope this has lifted your spirits it most certainly has with mine and to all of my authors out there writing their stories. Your life is your story, so write the very best ones that you possibly can! SEE YA!!!!

PROOF! That Non-Asians CAN become idols/stars in the Korean entertainment industry - PART 2

Hey so I'm BACK with another post and this is just adding the pervious one I made. If you haven't checked it out yet here's a link--->

So...I got A LOT to talk about and I am SUPER EXCITED to discuss it with you guys. I might make a video after I finish this later...idk

anyways...LET'S GET STARTED!!!!

This right here is the ULTIMATE PROOF that Non-Asians CAN indeed become K-pop idols!

If you don't know by now RANIA is a K-pop girl group and they just came back with the addition of 3 new members and one of those members just happens to be NON-ASIAN!!!

Okay if there is anyone confused don't worry I'm gonna break it down for ya ^_~

HISTORY LESSON!!!

Rania (Hangul: 라니아, stylized as RaNia or RANIA, shortened from Regeneration Idol of Asia) is a South Korean girl group formed by DR Music in 2010. The group was initially produced by American Teddy Riley[1] with their first debut single "Dr. Feel Good" in 2011.[2] Although the group is South Korean, former members Joy is Thai descent,[3][4] and Riko was raised in Japan.[1] The current members includes Di, T-ae, Xia, Alex, Hyeme and Seulji. 

(This is a picture of the original members of RANIA)

(Wikipedia)

Also, when RANIA was being created they first started off with plans for the group to become the third generation of BABY V.O.X but than they changed the idea and created RANIA. They had plans for RANIA to become global idols they even thought of adding a black member back then when RANIA was first created. 

(allkpop) 

Agency DR Music has announced that the girl group RANIA has recruited a black member named Alexandra Reid to the group.

Alexandra, age 21, is a rapper hailing from the U.S. Her father is white and her mother is black. She was born in Kansas and has lived in New York and Texas. She was part of the American record label Def Jam (housing Kanye West, Ludacris, and Justin Beiber, among others currently) starting from when she was 15 years old. Alexandra was preparing to debut with the help of her manager Scott (who formerly managed Rihanna and currently manages Bruno Mars, according to DR Music), when she came to know RANIA and signed on to become an official member.

Alexandra also starred in Jamie Foxx‘s “You Changed Me” music video, and she is said to boast top rapping skills. In regards to her composition skills, she has worked with Alex Dakid,who has worked with Eminem, and JR Rotem, who has worked with Britney Spears.

According to DR Music, Alexandra became interested in K-pop through YouTube and decided to come to Korea and be part of the K-pop scene through this opportunity with RANIA.

Because of visa issues, Alexandra was only able to join the group in Korea last month, but is currently preparing hard to promote with the group and is looking forward to going on TV.

Viewers will be able to start seeing Alexandra performing November 5, through RANIA’s “Demonstrate” comeback on “M!Countdown.”

(Soompi 2015)

Here are the teasers with Alexandra and the live version of the song on M! Countdown

OKAY! You all caught up now? GREAT! so let's talk about this ^_^

MY THOUGHTS: 

My thoughts on this are....I LOVE IT!!! I am super excited and happy that she got this amazing opportunity! For years non-Asian people (including me) have been trying to break through into the industry and for her to actually do it I just feel like this is an accomplishment that carries so much meaning and depth that can't be described. This not only proves that non-Asians CAN become k-pop idols, it also proves that EVERYTHING negative that was said before is WRONG! ANYONE CAN BE A K-POP STAR!!! and this PROVES IT!!! 

So far she is getting a lot of love from people BUT MOST of the hate comes from non-Asian K-pop fans...What does that tell you?

I can't wait to see how this plays out and the rest of RANIA's future endeavors. I will support the group like I always have. ^_^

Let me know in the comments how this makes you feel? Do you like it? Do you hate it? if so, why?