Hii Guys!! how's it going? Well lately I have been feeling a little down like, I am in this state a mini depression and I don't know what to do. This is going to be really hard for to me to explain but bear with me. (Also I know it's not Sunday but this couldn't wait)
Honestly, I have recently started to think about giving up on my dreams and just life in general.... that's why I haven't been on my blog in a while. I haven't felt the need to continue because...well....of a lot things. I have just been feeling really lost and I don't know what to do. I am in college right now and this is my last year and I have really big decisions to make. I will have to move out of my mom's house and live on my own and pay bills and ALL that fun stuff but....that is not really what I am scared of I guess it more of will I be able to achieve my dreams after college. You all know that I want to be a K-pop idol but that dream is coming up short now because I am 22 years old and we all know that.....okay the younger the better chances you have of becoming a K-pop idol and I feel like year by year me becoming a K-pop idol is becoming a hopeless dream now and if I am not able to become k-pop idol than....WHAT WILL I DO! I have plans of things I could do. I don't always have to go the "standard" way of becoming a K-pop idol I can do my way and still succeed BUT I don't know where to start and I don't want to make the wrong decisions....basically what I saying is I DON'T WANT TO FAIL! I don't want to feel like I wasted 22 years of my life for NOTHING! I just can't help but feel like I shouldn't have come to college I should have been more serious about my future. When I was younger I was care-free and I thought that I will never get old...but now that I am getting older I can see that I will not live forever and if I just waste my life away it would make me feel like my life was meaningless. I honestly don't know what the point was of me even coming to college! I feel like such a failure and I have had SO MANY setbacks! I just wish I knew what God's plan for me was so I can just focus on that. Sometimes I wish that I didn't have the dream that I do. Why couldn't I have wanted to be a doctor? or a lawyer? just something that's "normal" than I wouldn't be going through all this! I feel so lost at times and depressed because I don't know whats next for me, I don't know if becoming a K-pop idol is my TRUE calling or just a distraction. The next day is not guarantee you know...I just want to know what's my mission, my purpose and I feel like if I haven't figured it out by now....what's the point....I never will.
BUT I think that IS the point! Life isn't meant to be a planned thing, because let's be honest things don't always go the way you planned B) I think life is meant to be adventurous, outrageous, random, bold, and breathtaking. And I am ONLY 22 years old! if God willing I have a WHOLE life ahead of me! this isn't the end of a chapter its just the beginning! Honestly I don't know what K-pop companies are looking for. One day the could want someone that's 14 and the next day want someone that 26 WHO KNOWS?!?! it really is ALL about what they want to do for their next project so I am not going let my "age" stop me! AND even if I don't make it into a K-pop company I can say I tried and have NO REGRET! PLUS Korea isn't the only place I can become an idol! I can be a J-pop idol, a C-pop idol, and USA idol, etc... so no need to worry! B) PLUS finding "my purpose" will be a fun and adventurous journey because IT'S NOT ABOUT FINDING WHO YOU ARE, IT'S ABOUT DISCOVERING WHO YOU ARE!!! really....who says I have to have all the answers to the questions of life right now! I don't have to rush and I can go at my own pace! I am NOT wasting my life away I am just finishing a chapter and starting a new one! I am happy that I don't have "normal" dreams it shows that I am creative, I'm free-spirited and let's be honest....the dreams won't be there if they weren't meant for me.
Alright guys, I hope this has lifted your spirits it most certainly has with mine and to all of my authors out there writing their stories. Your life is your story, so write the very best ones that you possibly can! SEE YA!!!!
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Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Saturday, January 23, 2016
Inspirational Sunday's - STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO OTHERS!!!
Hii Guys! I'm back with another one of these "Inspirational Sunday's". I think some people really liked the first one and it is really therapeutic for me and I think it could be therapeutic to others as well
So lately....I have been going through a little mini depression. And it's not like this is the first time this happens but I'm mad at myself because I still keep letting it happen! Lately I have been looking into starting a music career and exactly how I should go about it and trying to find out what exactly my type of "style" of music I want to make would be. So like anyone else I go to look for artist that I really like and look up to in the music industry. And one of those people that I have been getting into latley is Rihanana! Before I liked Rihanna and I thought she was a talented and pretty woman but NOW I AM OBSESSED WITH HER! I have just been looking at her stories and her success and how she got started in the music industry. Well beside her I have been looking at younger up-coming artist like Justine Skye, Kash Doll, Sevyn Streeter, etc... and I was just looking at their success and began to compare myself with them. Especially with Justine Skye, she is a year younger than me but is already WAY MORE successful than I am right now. I also started to compare myself with Alex of RANIA and looking at her success and we are the SAME AGE!!! I'm not gonna lie I go jealous because.....THAT COULD HAVE BEEN ME!!! If I worked hard enough, if I was more active in the industry, if I had more connections....that could have been me. I just....I feel like ALL THESE YEARS I've just been wasting time! Time that I could have put into my career...I'm 21 going to be 22 this year and I'm already SOOOO LATE in the game I don't even feel like I'll catch up... I feel like I've been so lazy because I've been slacking up on missed opportunities. To tell you the truth...I feel that way right now... and I know I shouldn't compare myself to other because...these are ALL DIFFERENT LIVES and I can't compare my hustle to next hustle. They just worked with what they had and that's why they have the success the have. I just gotta work with what I got and get my success as well BUT I just wish that it didn't take this long for to find that out.
Because I have grown up in a small town and if you want to be in the entertainment business there aren't a lots of opportunities for that where I'm from. And my mother doesn't know anything about the business. She didn't have connections or anything like that. She was a single mom trying to provide for family. She didn't really have the time or the money to do stuff like that. Plus, since she didn't know anything about the business she couldn't give me any advice on how to go about it. But she always supported me in dreams and she always keep me motivated to continue to do it. So as a child I never thought that my dreams could be possible. I knew I wanted to be a pop-star like Rihanna and Beyonce but I didn't know how to go about and I lacked resources so I just never had it as an option. But it wasn't until I got into K-pop and seeing that I could go to auditions and they could train me to become a pop-star and that was the only time that I thought my dream could be somewhat possible and I could make it an actual reality. So I have been auditioning for several companies now and I'm still auditioning but its getting to the point where I am just becoming very IMPATIENCE! Idols are starting to debut at younger and younger ages so that alone makes me feel like..."WHAT EXACTLY AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW?!?!?" and I'm just start to feel....OLD.....I feel old and I feel like if I haven't made it by now than there is no more need in trying anymore.
BUT you know what?! I HAVE TO STOP COMPARING MYSELF WITH OTHERS!!!! Everyone's life is different and God has different plans for ALL OF US! So what he has in store for me is COMPLETELY DIFFERENT than what he has for someone else. What God gave them was THEIR blessing and now I have to get MY OWN blessing. I can't compare myself. When I do that I just like I am stuck in time and the world is just leaving behind............................... But I know better now that I can't compare myself to someone else. They live a completely different life, and had completely different opportunities. They worked hard so I have to work hard too. ^_^
“You will be bitter in life, when you compare yourself with others.Run the race of life at your own pace.”
― Lailah Gifty Akita
“Comparison is the death of joy.”
― Mark Twain
“I cannot say this too strongly: Do not compare yourselves to others. Be true to who you are, and continue to learn with all your might.”
― Daisaku Ikeda, Discussions on Youth
“People have one thing in common; they are all different.”
~ Robert Zend
“Until you make peace with who you are, you’ll never be content with what you have.”
~ Doris Mortman
Fantasia - I Believe
So lately....I have been going through a little mini depression. And it's not like this is the first time this happens but I'm mad at myself because I still keep letting it happen! Lately I have been looking into starting a music career and exactly how I should go about it and trying to find out what exactly my type of "style" of music I want to make would be. So like anyone else I go to look for artist that I really like and look up to in the music industry. And one of those people that I have been getting into latley is Rihanana! Before I liked Rihanna and I thought she was a talented and pretty woman but NOW I AM OBSESSED WITH HER! I have just been looking at her stories and her success and how she got started in the music industry. Well beside her I have been looking at younger up-coming artist like Justine Skye, Kash Doll, Sevyn Streeter, etc... and I was just looking at their success and began to compare myself with them. Especially with Justine Skye, she is a year younger than me but is already WAY MORE successful than I am right now. I also started to compare myself with Alex of RANIA and looking at her success and we are the SAME AGE!!! I'm not gonna lie I go jealous because.....THAT COULD HAVE BEEN ME!!! If I worked hard enough, if I was more active in the industry, if I had more connections....that could have been me. I just....I feel like ALL THESE YEARS I've just been wasting time! Time that I could have put into my career...I'm 21 going to be 22 this year and I'm already SOOOO LATE in the game I don't even feel like I'll catch up... I feel like I've been so lazy because I've been slacking up on missed opportunities. To tell you the truth...I feel that way right now... and I know I shouldn't compare myself to other because...these are ALL DIFFERENT LIVES and I can't compare my hustle to next hustle. They just worked with what they had and that's why they have the success the have. I just gotta work with what I got and get my success as well BUT I just wish that it didn't take this long for to find that out.
Because I have grown up in a small town and if you want to be in the entertainment business there aren't a lots of opportunities for that where I'm from. And my mother doesn't know anything about the business. She didn't have connections or anything like that. She was a single mom trying to provide for family. She didn't really have the time or the money to do stuff like that. Plus, since she didn't know anything about the business she couldn't give me any advice on how to go about it. But she always supported me in dreams and she always keep me motivated to continue to do it. So as a child I never thought that my dreams could be possible. I knew I wanted to be a pop-star like Rihanna and Beyonce but I didn't know how to go about and I lacked resources so I just never had it as an option. But it wasn't until I got into K-pop and seeing that I could go to auditions and they could train me to become a pop-star and that was the only time that I thought my dream could be somewhat possible and I could make it an actual reality. So I have been auditioning for several companies now and I'm still auditioning but its getting to the point where I am just becoming very IMPATIENCE! Idols are starting to debut at younger and younger ages so that alone makes me feel like..."WHAT EXACTLY AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW?!?!?" and I'm just start to feel....OLD.....I feel old and I feel like if I haven't made it by now than there is no more need in trying anymore.
BUT you know what?! I HAVE TO STOP COMPARING MYSELF WITH OTHERS!!!! Everyone's life is different and God has different plans for ALL OF US! So what he has in store for me is COMPLETELY DIFFERENT than what he has for someone else. What God gave them was THEIR blessing and now I have to get MY OWN blessing. I can't compare myself. When I do that I just like I am stuck in time and the world is just leaving behind............................... But I know better now that I can't compare myself to someone else. They live a completely different life, and had completely different opportunities. They worked hard so I have to work hard too. ^_^
Inspirational quotes of the day is.....
― Lailah Gifty Akita
“Comparison is the death of joy.”
― Mark Twain
“I cannot say this too strongly: Do not compare yourselves to others. Be true to who you are, and continue to learn with all your might.”
― Daisaku Ikeda, Discussions on Youth
“People have one thing in common; they are all different.”
~ Robert Zend
“Until you make peace with who you are, you’ll never be content with what you have.”
~ Doris Mortman
Lesson to learn:
You may think everyone is better than you are, but you are only seeing the image they portray to others. Everyone has their own fears and weaknesses — after all, we're all human. Stop comparing yourself to others, because you'll always come up short.
Inspirational Songs of Today is....
Fantasia - I Believe
So there you go...I hope you are healthy, loved and safe. Have a wonderful week ^_^
Sunday, September 20, 2015
Inspirational Sunday: DON'T GIVE UP!!!
Hi Guyz! I am BACK with another blog for you. This is a new segment I am starting and it's called "Inspirational Sunday" where I just talk about somethings that are frustrating me on my journey to becoming a K-pop or just life in general. By doing this I hope it connects with some of you and to let you know that you are not alone. I also hope it inspires you to keep going and never giving up on your dream! This segment is just basically a little pat on the back letting you know everything is going to be okay.
LET'S GET STARTED!!!
So I just wanted to talk about how I've been feeling lately. I am getting old lol well....at least too old to become a K-pop idol/star. I am looking at the new groups that keep popping up and all of them are younger than me! I just get SSSSOOOOOOOOO frustrated because in the back of my mind I am thinking, "that should be me". You know?!?! and they keep getting younger and it's like WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE!!! I always compare myself to them (even though I know I shouldn't compare myself to others) I always DO! How can you not?!?! I am not hating I am just a little jealous because they started when they were soooo young and look how far they have come compared to me...I am no where closer to my dream than last year. I am still NOT a trainee so definitely not close to even being considered an idol! I've been at this since 2012 and I have gotten NOWHERE! A part of me just wants to give up and call it quits.....go find a regular job and live a regular life...get married and that's it. I always think about what I am going to do if I don't make it. What will I do? There is nothing that I REALLY want to do besides this...
I think like this ALL the time and it is hard. Wanting something to happen and working towards it and getting nowhere. It's okay to think like sometimes everyone does but we shouldn't think like that ALL the time. If think is our out look of life than nothing will happen, if we continue think negatively than that's all that we're going to produce BUT if we think positively than we will produce positive things. There are going to be 2 auditions coming up, one for JYP and the for FNC and I won't able to go to any of them...I was kinda bet down about it but it's okay! Next year I will definitely attend more! This gives more time to work on my auditions so that next year I can blow the judges away! and I even am starting a video so I can get my name out there. I also will loss weight so that I can show the judges a new me!
I think this is a good message to always look forward and stay positive! I know there are those times when you want to give up and you want to quit but always remember to look on the brighter side of things and stay positive! Positive energy ONLY produces MORE positive energy!
ALSO REMEMBER....TO NEVER GIVE UP!!!
There countless numbers of K-pop idols that have also had these thoughts but NEVER gave up!
Choa of AOA failed 15 SM auditions and some JYP auditions too before she got into FNC
LET'S GET STARTED!!!
So I just wanted to talk about how I've been feeling lately. I am getting old lol well....at least too old to become a K-pop idol/star. I am looking at the new groups that keep popping up and all of them are younger than me! I just get SSSSOOOOOOOOO frustrated because in the back of my mind I am thinking, "that should be me". You know?!?! and they keep getting younger and it's like WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE!!! I always compare myself to them (even though I know I shouldn't compare myself to others) I always DO! How can you not?!?! I am not hating I am just a little jealous because they started when they were soooo young and look how far they have come compared to me...I am no where closer to my dream than last year. I am still NOT a trainee so definitely not close to even being considered an idol! I've been at this since 2012 and I have gotten NOWHERE! A part of me just wants to give up and call it quits.....go find a regular job and live a regular life...get married and that's it. I always think about what I am going to do if I don't make it. What will I do? There is nothing that I REALLY want to do besides this...
I think like this ALL the time and it is hard. Wanting something to happen and working towards it and getting nowhere. It's okay to think like sometimes everyone does but we shouldn't think like that ALL the time. If think is our out look of life than nothing will happen, if we continue think negatively than that's all that we're going to produce BUT if we think positively than we will produce positive things. There are going to be 2 auditions coming up, one for JYP and the for FNC and I won't able to go to any of them...I was kinda bet down about it but it's okay! Next year I will definitely attend more! This gives more time to work on my auditions so that next year I can blow the judges away! and I even am starting a video so I can get my name out there. I also will loss weight so that I can show the judges a new me!
I think this is a good message to always look forward and stay positive! I know there are those times when you want to give up and you want to quit but always remember to look on the brighter side of things and stay positive! Positive energy ONLY produces MORE positive energy!
ALSO REMEMBER....TO NEVER GIVE UP!!!
There countless numbers of K-pop idols that have also had these thoughts but NEVER gave up!
Choa of AOA failed 15 SM auditions and some JYP auditions too before she got into FNC
HyunA of 4minute failed 50 acting audition before she was signed to JYP and placed in the Wondergirls and then because of health reasons she had to leave
Wondergirls and for 2 years was in a deep depression until she audition for Cube and got accept as a member of 4minute. She is also my UB in K-pop ^_^!!!
Sehun of EXO was casted on the street by an SM staff but still went through 4 auditions in the time frame of 2 years before he got into SM.
Rain(λΉ„) auditioned 18 times for JYP entertainment before he was accepted. He is the reason why I got into K-pop in the first place.
and there are much more than this!
They didn't give up so why we? Keep chasing after your dreams! and NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Thank you for your time...seeya! byez ^_~
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